Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody. ~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye
Santanu Borah on J.D.Salinger
It's really too bad that so much crumby stuff is a lot of fun sometimes.
Santanu Borah on J.D.Salinger
Patient Trust
I just got home this evening from watching a play based on the life story of the Jesuit Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, written by my philosopher-friend-guide Cyril. It was a serious play and had some thought provoking messages. It just happened to be a coincidence that I read a prayer yesterday written by Teilhard, which somehow stayed with me for quite a while after...
It's about being patient and trusting.
So often I catch myself longing for quick results, hoping to just have everything ready and done without really working to it!! And then there are times I get so excited about plans that I want to, or am in the process of making (still in my mind at this stage) that I can't wait for them to materialize and then I go and end up frustrating myself during the 'planning' period because I already can't wait for the ultimate result!
I know, it sounds ridiculous!
But I'm working on "patience". (It's even my dialer-tone!)
So, that's that.
The Prayer:
Patient Trust
Above all, trust in the slow work of God.
We are quite naturally impatient in everything
to reach the end without delay.
We would like to skip the intermediate stages.
We are impatient of being on the way to something
unknown, something new.
And yet, it is the law of all progress
that it is made by passing through
some stages of instability-
and that it may take a very long time.
And so I think it is with you;
your ideas mature gradually- let them grow,
let them shape themselves, without undue haste.
Don't try to force them on,
as though you could be today what time,
(that is to say, grace and circumstances
acting on your own good will)
will make of you tomorrow.
Only God could say what this new spirit
gradually forming in you will be.
Give our Lord the benefit of believing
that His hand is leading you,
and accept the anxiety of feeling yourself
in suspense and incomplete.
-Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, S,J.
It's about being patient and trusting.
So often I catch myself longing for quick results, hoping to just have everything ready and done without really working to it!! And then there are times I get so excited about plans that I want to, or am in the process of making (still in my mind at this stage) that I can't wait for them to materialize and then I go and end up frustrating myself during the 'planning' period because I already can't wait for the ultimate result!
I know, it sounds ridiculous!
But I'm working on "patience". (It's even my dialer-tone!)
So, that's that.
(This kid had to have been the most patient person I've seen in a while!)
The Prayer:
Patient Trust
Above all, trust in the slow work of God.
We are quite naturally impatient in everything
to reach the end without delay.
We would like to skip the intermediate stages.
We are impatient of being on the way to something
unknown, something new.
And yet, it is the law of all progress
that it is made by passing through
some stages of instability-
and that it may take a very long time.
And so I think it is with you;
your ideas mature gradually- let them grow,
let them shape themselves, without undue haste.
Don't try to force them on,
as though you could be today what time,
(that is to say, grace and circumstances
acting on your own good will)
will make of you tomorrow.
Only God could say what this new spirit
gradually forming in you will be.
Give our Lord the benefit of believing
that His hand is leading you,
and accept the anxiety of feeling yourself
in suspense and incomplete.
-Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, S,J.
Stop Waiting
(The little girl I saw studying on a beach in Pondicherry!)
Look around you
What do you see?
Have you ever noticed?
Smiling faces and light hearts
just aren't as common as they used to be
This world, our world
seems to be so scared
Just waiting and watching
So unprepared
Stop waiting for the world to change
The truth is,
this isn't new.
Stop waiting for the world to change
The truth is,
Its waiting for you!
It's time to wake up
to this reality
Just lend a hand
And reach out
If you really have to
even jump up! Shout!
This world, this is our home
The only place we've ever known
Stop waiting for the wrold to change
'cos the truth is its waiting for us
Stop waiting for the world to change
the truth is,
this isnt new
Stop waiting for the world to change
The truth is,
Its waiting for you!
Beautiful Mess.
I just changed my status on FB to
"Larika Mallier has a super power. Running in all directions. At the same time."
Then I leaned back, after publishing I might add, to think about it.
Yeah, it totally contradicts itself.. much like, lots of things I say.
But, I like contradictions, and thats another topic altogether!
So, the point-
is my super power really just "stationarianism"? (yes, I totally just made up that word)
What I'm asking is, isn't running in all directions really not going anywhere at all?
Being stationary?
(step out of your stereotypical thought processes and screw physics.. and get a little philosophically creative here, about what I'm trying to say.)
It's the feeling you get when you're doing a gazillion (to be completely exaggerating) or two things at one time, to put it quite simply.
It can really get so frustrating, and all you can think about is "SCREW everything. I'm going to CHILL!"
Even that is DOING something! There's no escape!
You get the feeling that you're not really doing anything even though you're doing quite a lot!
We have this insane capacity to distort things, especially related to us, in our minds.
But, despite feelings like the ones I mentioned, there are the good ones...
the feeling of being busy and useful in more than just one place,
the feeling of peace when you DO decide to chill (now that wouldn't be as beautiful if we'd had everything figured out and running smoothly all the time, would it?),
the feeling of happiness within, when the whole world thinks your priorities are messed up, but deep inside you know what's important to you and what makes you happy, and you're doing it anyway(and not totally disappointing the world either)!
Sometimes it probably feels like you're never doing justice to what you're doing in the present because thoughts of everything else keep running through your mind, and then you develop the skill to 'tune out' too! perfect!
So I think, that in the end, it boils down to the kind of person you are.
And I'm pretty sure I'm the kind that loves the unpredictability of chaos as well as a little order once in a while.
But a classic Arien, easily bored, must always be entertained I suppose!
(I''m a poet, did you know it?)
This post is just a random rambling of thoughts uncensored through my mind.
Don't take it too seriously, I may think differently after publishing it, leaning back and thinking about it! :)
Beautiful Mess!
"Larika Mallier has a super power. Running in all directions. At the same time."
Then I leaned back, after publishing I might add, to think about it.
Yeah, it totally contradicts itself.. much like, lots of things I say.
But, I like contradictions, and thats another topic altogether!
So, the point-
is my super power really just "stationarianism"? (yes, I totally just made up that word)
What I'm asking is, isn't running in all directions really not going anywhere at all?
Being stationary?
(step out of your stereotypical thought processes and screw physics.. and get a little philosophically creative here, about what I'm trying to say.)
It's the feeling you get when you're doing a gazillion (to be completely exaggerating) or two things at one time, to put it quite simply.
It can really get so frustrating, and all you can think about is "SCREW everything. I'm going to CHILL!"
Even that is DOING something! There's no escape!
You get the feeling that you're not really doing anything even though you're doing quite a lot!
We have this insane capacity to distort things, especially related to us, in our minds.
But, despite feelings like the ones I mentioned, there are the good ones...
the feeling of being busy and useful in more than just one place,
the feeling of peace when you DO decide to chill (now that wouldn't be as beautiful if we'd had everything figured out and running smoothly all the time, would it?),
the feeling of happiness within, when the whole world thinks your priorities are messed up, but deep inside you know what's important to you and what makes you happy, and you're doing it anyway(and not totally disappointing the world either)!
Sometimes it probably feels like you're never doing justice to what you're doing in the present because thoughts of everything else keep running through your mind, and then you develop the skill to 'tune out' too! perfect!
So I think, that in the end, it boils down to the kind of person you are.
And I'm pretty sure I'm the kind that loves the unpredictability of chaos as well as a little order once in a while.
But a classic Arien, easily bored, must always be entertained I suppose!
(I''m a poet, did you know it?)
This post is just a random rambling of thoughts uncensored through my mind.
Don't take it too seriously, I may think differently after publishing it, leaning back and thinking about it! :)
Beautiful Mess!
Eat your heart out!
I'm not even going to say anything.
It's just that, when you know of things like these,
it is only fair, they must be shared.
What you must eat in Goa...
(Especially for you shameless lot who go and order butter chicken there!
And I'm a butter chicken faithful, so trust me!)
To, all the vegetarians... I apologize.
Actually, not really.
So just skip this. :)
Peace.
Prawns at the Karaoke Baga Beach Shack!
French toast for breakfast, there's nothing Goan about it,
but it's very good and made a nice picture!
The menu on display at Martins corner!
Kalamari!! (squid.. Martin's corner in this picture)
Butter garlic prawns!
Caldeen! (Martin's corner is especially good for it!)
Parra? (for weird folk)
King fish at Souza Lobos.. Huge!
I just liked how the Caramel Custard looked.
Life really IS alot about food. :)
Bon Appetite!
I see you.
In all our diverseness, we're so much the same.
Yeah- a statement that probably sounds stale by now. (Especially coming from me!)
But its the truth!
Today I, along with some members of the S.S.U.(our inter-religious youth group), had an interaction with about 12 American students from the Loyola Marymount University, LA.
At first we just sat across from each other, uncertain about what to talk about and how to start. But as the discussion progressed from introductions, preconceived notions we had of each other's country and people to general opinions about life and religion, it just struck a chord with me how unbelievably "typical" and at the same time "unpredictable" we are as a race. The human race. If there ever was a paradox to compete!
In every group of people no matter how varied or not- basically in every gathering of breathing human beings, irrespective of their places of origin and what they do or do not believe, you find joy, you find warmth and a sense of recognition. How often do we pay attention to what it truly means to belong to and feel a part of a species?! - I have a feeling all of this would get knocked into perspective if Aliens came a-calling! :) (hey! it could happen!)
What I'm trying to say, is that we had expected to meet youngsters from a entirely different world. One we'd have to question deeply with a hope to understand. But instead, we connected with people our age, who only happen to live in a country a couple of oceans away, who have such similar thoughts, opinions, likes and dislikes!
They, like us, are also searching.
Searching for meaning.
Searching for fulfillment.
Searching for ways to make their lives, and the lives of people around them, better.
Searching for truth.
I honestly do not believe that there is any one answer to our many questions;
Or that there is any one thing to find at the end of this search we're all partaking in.
I believe only that there are lessons to learn along the way and love and goodness to discover and grow deeply in.
That, for me, is where the beauty of this life lies.
I believe in something greater than us- a God, all-knowing infinite being, a creator, Yahweh, Allah, Krishna, Jesus, call it what you want or don't call it anything at all, that exists to guide us along a path of righteousness; that exists, above all, within each and every one of us.
I believe in love.
I believe in that ability to recognize in a stranger or your closest friend the same beauty you wish to be seen in you, because you know deep within, without a doubt, it is there.
I believe in seeing and being seen-
No strings (and by strings I mean judgement) attached.
And I hope the 'whole' world, sooner than later, will believe it too.
************************************
(An article by Deepak Chopra that I quite liked)
http://www.oprah.com/article/spirit/knowyourself/pkgempoweryourself/20091118-expert-deepak-chopra-infinite-energy
Yeah- a statement that probably sounds stale by now. (Especially coming from me!)
But its the truth!
Today I, along with some members of the S.S.U.(our inter-religious youth group), had an interaction with about 12 American students from the Loyola Marymount University, LA.
At first we just sat across from each other, uncertain about what to talk about and how to start. But as the discussion progressed from introductions, preconceived notions we had of each other's country and people to general opinions about life and religion, it just struck a chord with me how unbelievably "typical" and at the same time "unpredictable" we are as a race. The human race. If there ever was a paradox to compete!
In every group of people no matter how varied or not- basically in every gathering of breathing human beings, irrespective of their places of origin and what they do or do not believe, you find joy, you find warmth and a sense of recognition. How often do we pay attention to what it truly means to belong to and feel a part of a species?! - I have a feeling all of this would get knocked into perspective if Aliens came a-calling! :) (hey! it could happen!)
What I'm trying to say, is that we had expected to meet youngsters from a entirely different world. One we'd have to question deeply with a hope to understand. But instead, we connected with people our age, who only happen to live in a country a couple of oceans away, who have such similar thoughts, opinions, likes and dislikes!
They, like us, are also searching.
Searching for meaning.
Searching for fulfillment.
Searching for ways to make their lives, and the lives of people around them, better.
Searching for truth.
I honestly do not believe that there is any one answer to our many questions;
Or that there is any one thing to find at the end of this search we're all partaking in.
I believe only that there are lessons to learn along the way and love and goodness to discover and grow deeply in.
That, for me, is where the beauty of this life lies.
I believe in something greater than us- a God, all-knowing infinite being, a creator, Yahweh, Allah, Krishna, Jesus, call it what you want or don't call it anything at all, that exists to guide us along a path of righteousness; that exists, above all, within each and every one of us.
I believe in love.
I believe in that ability to recognize in a stranger or your closest friend the same beauty you wish to be seen in you, because you know deep within, without a doubt, it is there.
I believe in seeing and being seen-
No strings (and by strings I mean judgement) attached.
And I hope the 'whole' world, sooner than later, will believe it too.
One Love. One Heart.
(An article by Deepak Chopra that I quite liked)
http://www.oprah.com/article/spirit/knowyourself/pkgempoweryourself/20091118-expert-deepak-chopra-infinite-energy
Happy Newness!
It's been a bittersweet beginning to 2010. (That's if I go by the conventional worldly calendar and say my year began on the 1st of Jan- effectively five days ago.)
That's when I was battling a horrible cough which sounded like mild bomb-blasts and dodging fever and drinking warm water with honey while everyone else toasted a new beginning with drinks, more palatable.
It wasn't all bad though, I did bring in their new start with good feeling, cheer and friends around me. But there's no denying the sloppy, almost physically defeated feeling from within.
So, I don't want to do that- Have started my year already, that is.
Today, I'm much better. Still recovering, but I 'feel' much more, myself.
Much more driven to make something special of the next 365.
I'd rather start the year- sweet. Plain and simple.
So I've decided. 2010- for me- starts NOW.
6: 00 pm on the 5th of January.
Fresh Start.
*********************************
It just takes sometime
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything
will be just fine
Everything, everything
will be alright, alright!
*********************************
Shaggy is always such a good "pick me up"!
Happy New You!
That's when I was battling a horrible cough which sounded like mild bomb-blasts and dodging fever and drinking warm water with honey while everyone else toasted a new beginning with drinks, more palatable.
It wasn't all bad though, I did bring in their new start with good feeling, cheer and friends around me. But there's no denying the sloppy, almost physically defeated feeling from within.
So, I don't want to do that- Have started my year already, that is.
Today, I'm much better. Still recovering, but I 'feel' much more, myself.
Much more driven to make something special of the next 365.
I'd rather start the year- sweet. Plain and simple.So I've decided. 2010- for me- starts NOW.
6: 00 pm on the 5th of January.
Fresh Start.
*********************************
It just takes sometime
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything
will be just fine
Everything, everything
will be alright, alright!
*********************************
Shaggy is always such a good "pick me up"!
Happy New You!
Tripping on the KINKS!
You've gotta love them!!
The Kinks, somehow, have the best choruses to sing along to!
Strange, and SO much fun! :)
I think I'm sophisticated
'Cos I'm living my life like a good homosapien
But all around me everybody's multiplying
Till they're walking round like flies man
So I'm no better than the animals sitting in their cages
in the zoo man
'Cos compared to the flowers and the birds and the trees
I am an ape man
I think I'm so educated and I'm so civilized
'Cos I'm a strict vegetarian
But with the over-population and inflation and starvation
And the crazy politicians
I don't feel safe in this world no more
I don't want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore and make like an ape man
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man
I'm an ape man I'm a King Kong man I'm ape ape man
I'm an ape man
'Cos compared to the sun that sits in the sky
compared to the clouds as they roll by
Compared to the bugs and the spiders and flies
I am an ape man
In man's evolution he has created the cities and
the motor traffic rumble, but give me half a chance
and I'd be taking off my clothes and living in the jungle
'Cos the only time that I feel at ease
Is swinging up and down in a coconut tree
Oh what a life of luxury to be like an ape man
I'm an ape, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a King Kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man
I look out my window, but I can't see the sky
'Cos the air pollution is
fogging up my eyes
I want to get out of this city alive
And make like an ape man
Come and love me, be my ape man girl
And we will be so happy in my ape man world
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a King Kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man
I'll be your Tarzan, you'll be my Jane
I'll keep you warm and you'll keep me sane
and we'll sit in the trees and eat bananas all day
Just like an ape man
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a King Kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man.
I don't feel safe in this world no more
I don't want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore
And make like an ape man.
The Kinks, somehow, have the best choruses to sing along to!
Strange, and SO much fun! :)
I think I'm sophisticated
'Cos I'm living my life like a good homosapien
But all around me everybody's multiplying
Till they're walking round like flies man
So I'm no better than the animals sitting in their cages
in the zoo man
'Cos compared to the flowers and the birds and the trees
I am an ape man
I think I'm so educated and I'm so civilized
'Cos I'm a strict vegetarian
But with the over-population and inflation and starvation
And the crazy politicians
I don't feel safe in this world no more
I don't want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore and make like an ape man
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man
I'm an ape man I'm a King Kong man I'm ape ape man
I'm an ape man
'Cos compared to the sun that sits in the sky
compared to the clouds as they roll by
Compared to the bugs and the spiders and flies
I am an ape man
In man's evolution he has created the cities and
the motor traffic rumble, but give me half a chance
and I'd be taking off my clothes and living in the jungle
'Cos the only time that I feel at ease
Is swinging up and down in a coconut tree
Oh what a life of luxury to be like an ape man
I'm an ape, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a King Kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man
I look out my window, but I can't see the sky
'Cos the air pollution is
fogging up my eyes
I want to get out of this city alive
And make like an ape man
Come and love me, be my ape man girl
And we will be so happy in my ape man world
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a King Kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man
I'll be your Tarzan, you'll be my Jane
I'll keep you warm and you'll keep me sane
and we'll sit in the trees and eat bananas all day
Just like an ape man
I'm an ape man, I'm an ape ape man, I'm an ape man
I'm a King Kong man, I'm a voo-doo man
I'm an ape man.
I don't feel safe in this world no more
I don't want to die in a nuclear war
I want to sail away to a distant shore
And make like an ape man.
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